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i've come a loooooonnnnnng way! everything happening right now is crazy but exciting...looking foward to it all!


if you wanna hangout, im prob. down.

HAPPY TEN MONTHS TO ME AND LAUREN TODAY!

I LOVE HER.

happy 4th of july to everyone else.

so.......dissapointed.

i don't know, do i need to change? when i talk about how everyone around me has been changing, moving on to things that seem different than what they once were.

am i doing the right thing? do i feel the right way? is it my place to feel upset about others actions?

am i the weak one or the strong one?

things have not been how i wished the first half of my summer would be. its so much harder here than i thought.

i miss lauren.

on silver lining dreams.


just know,
my heart is over seas.

"heavens path" a destination into the dark.





society's youth, wasted. forgotten.

i always find it in lauren. she is my love. my raincoat, my sweet, my everything<3...you made me feel so much better just being with me tonight.

i had a really good time hitting the streets with lauren. drving from place to place, listening to music or turning it off just to talk. needless to say driving from place to place was better than getting there.

   

 


me and lauren just got married : )...<333333333333

i love her a lot.

i had to work tonight, but i kinda needed the shift. i need to get some shifts covered and sort all that out sooon. i was that close tah geting a pedicure today, and even closer to skipping work and staying with lauren. my head hurt so bad when i got home, but i just got off the phone with her and she made me feel better :)

i am in love. and it makes me so happy i have fallen in love with the person that has become my best friend.

thank you God.

1.love on lauren
2.raise GPA
3.learn more about how i can help mentaly handicapped/needy children
4.stop saying the F word so much, preferably all together
5.draw and write more often
6.figure out what im going to do all summer with my sweetheart gone
7.go fishing
8.build something
9.download software and hook up hardware for my graphire pen tablet
10.go to payback fest
11.hangout with lauren

im going to miss my girl so much. lauren hasnt even left yet and i have already started to feel it. hey boo, i hope you have an amazing time in jamacia...you will be on my mind and in my heart! come home soon baby

i love you lauren!

too much on my mind

and no where for it to go!

as of right now, my horizon is widened. 
im not sure where to go, or where to look.

though it may hurt a little more...
i am not going to be apathetic to anything or anyone i care about.
in my eyes, apathy is an easy way to hide...it can never heal what you
have inside.

and i will never live to ask what could have been.

i do...

we drove around and listened to music. we didnt say much and didnt find any junkyards, just big contrustions sites. we pissed off the david (the honda guy) and my hands were to cold to hold most of the time...but i loved today. the moments when i felt i was yours.

during my 3rd period class today, we had the opportunity to go down to the library to increase our awareness for community service programs around jacksonville. i had no intentions of signing up, or even being interested in any of them. it was a quick getaway from class. needless to say, as i roamed aimlessly around there were two programs that i could not pass up. i have been working with kids full time for the last 3 summers, i have grown so much and experienced more than alot of kids my age have had the opportunity to do.

both of the programs i am looking into deal with kids, and the fulfillment one person can do in their lives. one program is a summer camp, its only two weeks long but would be worth every minutes. Camp I am Special is a program that surrounds a loving caring atmosphere around mentally disabled children, i would be assigned to one "buddy" for two weeks. considering this highly!!!!

the second program i am considering is well known around the united states, the dreams come true foundation. i can feel something inside me that wants to help these kids, to put a smile on a child's face who is terminally ill would be one of the most precious amazing feelings in the world!


<3

i enjoyed my weekend for the most part...friday night i took my girlfriend to our favorite spot and got clear soup, she thought the rest of the night was going to be typical but instead i suprised her with gin blossom tickets. it was worth everything, to see how excited she was made all the difference :]. saturday was spent discovering new parts of jacksonville, amazing thrift store stops, festivals, shows, dumplings, and laughing to the college life. today ended a good weekend horribly. i fucked up my hand, didnt find any good cds, and miss my girlfriend. school tomorrow, and progress reports this thursday. im back to living for my weekends...apparently ive lost my touch, my luster, my love.

crab clawww

 AUTOBAHN!

long nights hanginout with your mom!...then seafood kitchen and florida blvd!

 summer, elvis's son, and...godiva?

 BAH! thanks for holding my hand!

 <3

 "its christmas time"

 if i had it my way we would go here every weekend, hows that sound?

 hot air balloon<3

 silver lining dreams...im going to take you there

 ilu...to the stars and back

 i would only be lucky...gardens.

my stomach is tied in a knot. i feel sick but i know im not.
i cant sleep...and my heart is beating awkwardly.

<3 <333 <3 <33333<3<3 <33 <3